Whoa. 2 entries in 2 days. I’m slightly impressing myself. Could this perhaps be the start of a new habit? Eh? Ehhhh? Probs not. Don’t get too excited. My kids have free time from 6 until 8 and this is my way of blocking out the current fighting that’s happening over who has the iPads.
I’m writing today to check in on YOU. Yes, you. The one who is reading this sentence. How are you holding up? Was today one of ‘those days‘ or was there a bit of sunshine that made you feel some inner light? Did you take a day for yourself or did you check off absolutely everything on your list? Maybe you knocked off 1 or 2 things and are feeling unaccomplished, like myself. Maybe you’re coming to grips with the fact that this really isn’t going away anytime soon because some jerks are still having a soccer game at the local sports field. (yaaaa I saw you.) Or maybe you have this all under control and are currently making your wonderful and perfect family a loaf of fresh baked bread….
…can I also take a moment here to ask what the fuss is about homemade bread? Are we all devouring carbs because we think the world is ending and we’ve deprived ourselves of everything wonderful for far too long? Corona bread is a thing.
Okay, now that I’ve stopped drooling over the idea of loaded carbs let me get back to reality for a minute. Are we doing a good enough job of checking in on each other? Or are we totally divulged in figuring out our own routines and stuck in our own world? I already know that I’m 100% the latter. And I do need to apologize to my friends for not checking in more. Truth is, I know I need you and maybe-just maybe you need me, too. I know we’re all learning new coping mechanisms and building a new routine, which will take time, and I have nothing but understanding and compassion at this time for you all. I’m over here trying to build semi-routines for 5 different humans who still have MANY needs and my darling twinsters are at that age where they do nothing but either talk or ask the most random questions. And I really hope that you can understand that my plate is full, too. I am absolutely missing fellow adults. I miss face-to-face conversation, I miss my neighbourhood Mama bus stop chats, I miss watching movies with my favourite person and I miss going to work and seeing my dancers faces. But I’m thinking of you! I’m thinking of you all who are missing your typical days, full of work and extra curriculars. I’m thinking of my Mama’s with toddlers at home wondering if this will delay their entry into the school system and I’m thinking of all the parents with graduating kiddos who are wondering if they’ll get to enjoy the remained of their Senior year. My heart literally breaks for you.
But, I’m really thinking of my fellow single parents. And this, by zero means doesn’t knock anyone else- my heart just especially hurts for them. Majority of us didn’t sign up to raise these kids alone and I’m sure I can speak for many of us that we never thought we’d be facing a pandemic in our entire lives. I think of you all every day and I’m giving you all the hugs I can virtually send to smother those feelings of inadequacy and loneliness. Those moments when you just need a second to breathe but actually have no one to tag in? Extra hugs there. It absolutely isn’t for the faint of heart and I admire the strength you’ve been forced to build due to your own personal circumstance. I know we all have this and we will absolutely persevere through it, but I wanted to ‘check in’ and let you know that I’m sending you lots of love. Keep at it, we got this.
These days have the potential to become overwhelming and as the days build, chances are that the kids are legitimately going to start fighting more and more. I’m currently listening to one child absolutely losing it because one of his brothers ticked him off. I know this is a complete glance into my future days and my brain is actually going non-stop trying to figure out HOW to eliminate all and any fights. Advice? I’ll take whatcha got.
Chances are that I’m going to shut this computer down and reach out to absolutely no one because I don’t want to burden anyone with my groans and sighs when they’re already fighting their own uphill battle. AAAAAAANNNNNDDD if I’m honestly speaking? Today was pretty dece. I’m practicing self-love and self-care and even though these kids are loud and won’t stop asking me things, I love them dearly.
So, if all ya did today was burn the Kraft Dinner and question how Nutella got on the roof, you’re killin’ it. I see you all and am going to try to check in more often. And hey- maybe after this is all said and done, I’ll actually start showing up to the places I’m invited 😉