Well, today was the day I was going to change my life. My alarm was set for 5am, my ‘home workout’ was meticulously planned, I had my non-lululemon outfit planned and ready to go AND I even pinned a new makeup look I was going to try. Oh, and blow dry my hair. It was the day to go from frumpy-hot-mess-top knot-makeup free Mom to Upper-East-Side-have-my-life-together Mom.
And here I am. Two coffees deep, somewhat buzzing off my caffeine rush and also nauseated because I haven’t eaten, showered, but far too lazy to do anything else. My wardrobe is questionable as it turns out. I did some ‘spring cleaning’ when I kicked off on my keto journey and I threw out everything, unless it was comfy attire because I legitimately thought I’d be in the gym every day. Bahahaha. Funny girl, I am. The good news is that my jeans are actually much too big and even if I wanted to wear them, I cannot. Small victory, I suppose. But maybe don’t be surprised when all this is over and I am rushing to the mall in a toga to hit the clearance rack at Forever 21. Or whatever store it is now. End of the day, I do not own nice clothes. And if I did, I don’t know where they are. Leggings for the win and frumpy-hot mess Mom prevails.
The goal today is to make a batch of sugar cookies for the kids to decorate. And then obviously not let them eat them because they’ll be hopped up on a sugar rush from the Easter Bunny. I can be evil like that. I think it’s just one of those things that makes me feel like I’ve accomplished something as a Mother and am trying to implement some sort of tradition so that when every time they bite into a dry, crumbly, disaster of a sugar cookie, they will have wonderful memories flooding back of their Mother. Ha. I really do have plans of making the day as productive as possible because I simply cannot take another day of staring at the clock and just waiting for bedtime to roll around. That was yesterday. It was just one of those days and I have zero regrets or apologies for letting the kids run rampant. Yolo.
And apparently, Easter has snuck up on us once again. I was never a huge fan of Easter when I was a kid and even though I’d happily mow down on chocolate the entire day and be ready to puke by dinner, I was always anxious to get back to real life after this long weekend. I’m not sure if it’s the sense of renewal that comes with this holiday or if the general brighter days make me want to get back to the daily grind but I’m desperately trying to find my spirit today. I grabbed some fresh bouquets to help brighten my mood after this week (it was gnarly with all this e-learning) and as much as they help, I’m super aggravated that we can’t open our family home to more than who lives here. And for the record, we don’t host often but you see, my parents were supposed to be away in Florida and I was somewhat looking forward to having friends and family over and attempt to cook a turkey. I imagine we would haver had to end up ordering pizza because something absolutely would have gone wrong but the general thought was there to welcome those who didn’t have much going on. I’m sure y’all can relate. And you better be staying home so we aren’t facing this at Thanksgiving and Christmas. Cuz then I’ll be right angry.
And PS. I’m super happy my parents aren’t in Florida because now we get to spend Easter with the famjam.
We can all come to terms with the fact that this Easter is gonna be a weird one and I’m sure not all of us are celebrating or acknowledging the celebration. But it’s always been a time for us to just stop. As for the past few years it has always fallen right smack in the middle of dance competition season and my final exams. I kinda get emotional thinking back to it because I’m that person who thrives in a busy life and constantly running about. I’m beyond grateful that I’m with my family and appreciative that my kids are in a home full of love but man-oh-man, it hits me hard that I don’t get to spend time with some of my favourite people. BUT, we are all in the same boat here and this is only going to potentially strengthen some bonds and relationships and we’ll come out it better and stronger. Riiiiight?
From my somewhat empty home to yours (jk. our house is never empty) I really hope you are all finding the silver lining in this pandemic as we do our best to try and celebrate this holiday weekend. I hope your baking turns out better than mine and I also hope you don’t get the stomach ache I had for the last 48 hours after thinking eating a bag of Mini Eggs was a good idea. I don’t know about you but I am so freakin thankful that e-learning is not happening for the next few days and as I type this I’m suddenly remembering that I need to upload all sorts of assignments that were due, of course, on Thursday. We will absolutely talk about this online stuff at a later date because I just can’t right now. Take your vitamin C people, drink your water and try and sleep. And the most massive props to our local chocolate store for saving my butt with curbside pickup. You’re a freakin’ gem.