Another Chapter Begins.

Exhale.

I made it. Another day down. Phew.

But is anyone else losing their voice right now? And no, it’s not Covid…. I guess I’ve been using my *ahem* ‘teaching voice’ a lot more often than normal. Anyone?!

Don’t worry, though.. I’m finally sitting down, sipping on a pretty tasty apple cinnamon tea and have some soothing piano covers of the Backstreet Boys playing in the background. Clearly all I need. But in all seriousness, you can not take me out of this happy place right now. And if my kids ever read this, your Mama is pleading with you to ensure that whatever old-folks home you end up throwing me in, you better make sure they’ll play me my Backstreet and all 90’s music all day long. *sips tea and sings along to Incomplete*

K. So. I decided to go back and get some MORE certifications and today was Day 1 of Real Estate Education. Why you may ask? (and let’s be real here, even if you’re not asking why, I’m gonna tell you). Because people, I have a lot of children. And these children want things. And these children have lives that are way busier than mine EVER was. And I wouldn’t mind conversing with adults once in a while and wearing clothes that don’t come from a leisure wear store. (Lulu, you’re still my girl, don’t worry. I’ll never veer far from the Wunder Under). But, really. I figured this might be my best bet to eventually have some control over my schedule AND sharpen my business skills and drive. If I’m being completely honest, it was refreshing to learn something out of my knowledge set today. There was zero mention of Sigmund Freud and I didn’t have to look into the deeper meaning of what the course material ACTUALLY meant. It simply is what it is and I really am looking forward to mastering this new avenue I’ve decided to take.

But why now, right? Why the hell do I need to jump into this during quarantine when my kids are home and life is anything but ordinary? Because I have to. I have to remember their eyes are on me at all times. I realized last week that I’ve accepted the world for what it is in this moment and now I’m looking as to how this will help my family GROW. How are my kids and I going to grow from this pandemic? If I were to give in and laze around all day, my kids would follow suit. The school work would 100% be met with absolute resistance and they wouldn’t care to get anything done. And we did kick back and take it easy the last month and I have absolutely zero guilt or shame about it. I needed it. I needed to recharge my batteries that were getting dangerously low and I needed that slap in the face to realize what’s truly important in life. No, the things aren’t important and money will always come and go. It is my family and friends who are my world and honestly speaking, it’s been really hard to choose a career as a single mother. Without their Dad around, it’s me who needs to be there for them as much as I possibly can, if not every single time. I realize this potential career will not have me there for them at every moment, but it’ll give me some more flexibility than a typical 9-5. Wifi is a beautiful thing and if it means I’m able to send out communications and do some work while I’m sitting in a dance competition or hockey arena, then it’s worth it for me. Putting in the work doesn’t scare me. I will happily stay up late at night and wake up at 4am to get everything done that I need to. Hard work has never put me off. And I pray to God that my kids take on that one trait from me.

I took my eldest for a walk tonight and can we just all do the world a big favour and continue writing positive messages on rocks and sidewalks when this is all over? I have never felt a sense of community like I have in the last month and I truly was brought to tears a few times tonight just reading the encouragement literally surrounding us. It’s amazing how a strangers random act of kindness can bring one’s own sense of worth so much higher. Anyways! Jai was looking at a few particular rocks and she stopped reading one out loud and got that look of wonder on her face. Naturally, I ask her what she’s thinking and she reads out “don’t limit your challenges, challenge your limits.” She was smiling. She understood it. #hugewin

Whoa, right? Yah, I’m sure a number of y’all have heard this before but in my 34 years of existence, this was a new one. It absolutely sat with me for the rest of our walk and it’s still fresh in my brain as I sit here and type away. I like it. It resonates with me and the kids right now. I’ve decided to take a break from the mainstream education this week and focus on teaching them how to make goals and how to challenge their thoughts. A little homeschooling if you will. But like, without the curriculum and all that 😉 I want to raise my kids to know that they have the potential to shatter glass ceilings and that hard work will get you where you want to go. So, we’re going to do a little bit of off-roading and see where it takes us. I’ll definitely letcha know.

Anyways, I’m going to wrap this up right here because with all this brings on a much earlier wake up time. And I’m not gonna lie, I attempted like 3 exercises with these challenger bars and my freakin arms feel like cooked spaghetti noodles that have been beaten by a wooden spoon a few million times. I’m so bloody weak that it’s not even funny. But hey, it’s something else I’m working on. Ish. Night, folks.